Life is complicated, life is hard... living is beautiful! Are you living the best life you can? Are you reaching the full potential that God intended for you?
If your life revolves around your next high, your next withdrawal - then you have so much more of life to experience. Drug use stunts your ability to enjoy all that life has to offer you. Think about it. What are you living for... partying with you friends? Sneaking a joint in the back yard? Is that where your excitement begins and ends. If so I urge you to rethink where you are headed and why.
What you perceive as "innocent partying" can very well lead you down a path of destruction that you can now only imagine. Jail, addiction... illness - death are all very real possibilities - I know first hand. I watched drugs destroy my only daughter. Take heart - there is a way to change your life, to begin living it to the fullest without drugs or alcohol. Step back... assess the situation. You don't have to go it alone. Drop the drugs - turn to your family... ask for help and accept it. Will it be easy? No, probably not... but you're worth it. You deserve to live the best life you can... to be everything you always dreamed you'd be. Talk to someone you trust... and remember to talk to God. He's listening... he's watching over you... he knows your struggles.