Monday, February 23, 2009
I feel like no matter what I do there is a darkness inside of me that can not reach the light of the Lord. I try and try and yet I have this aching set before me in brillant colors, showing itself to me, taunting me... "Here I am you can not release me to Christ, I am too powerful"... I know in my heart that can never be true. My savior is the King of King this piece of me that is still so far away from him is like a run-a-way child. Sly, quick and ready to run with a venegance. Why would it so wish to elude me? Why would it choose to stay in the darkness? It is the part of me that I distain and yet I still call it friend? It is dead weight to me and yet I carry it and wear it why?